10th
happy birthday
To a mother who never fails me,
You spoil me incredibly. It makes me realize I’m not a good daughter all the time, but somehow you never fail to be there for me.I really don’t deserve you sometimes.
You’re the one who is always excited to have me home even though you barely see me when I am home. You know I’m always out with friends every time I come home, but you still look forward to me coming home. You always make sure to be the one who comes get me from Berkeley and you never complain about coming to get me when I can easily be a bart ride away. You make excuses to pick me up instead of letting me take the bart because you would see me sooner if you came yourself.
You’re the one who tells me everything will be okay. You don’t pressure me and you believe I’ll make it through. When my world seems to be falling apart, you’re the one who still has faith in me. You view me as someone who is perfect even though I know I’m not. You love bragging about me even though I find it annoying and I know other people do too. However, I know that’s a sign that you’re proud of me and I love you for being proud of me because I don’t know who else I can say the same about.
When you’re in pain, I know I’m the reason. When you have to go through surgery, I know it’s because of me. When you faint and have to go to the emergency room, I know it’s because of me. When I can see that you’re getting old, I know it’s because of me. When you fake a smile to hide problems away from me, I know it’s because of me. You would go through anything and any pain to keep me safe and keep me happy. I love you for that. I know I’m still a child and can’t possibly stop all the pain, but just wait for me. One day I’m going to make things easier for all of us. You won’t have to worry anymore.
Though I know you have flaws, I can’t stand when other people talk about them. I want to sock them in the face. You’re not perfect, but you’re my mom. Though I may not understand everything you do, at the end I know you do whatever you do because you think it’s what’s best for me. Though it may be hard for me to accept that, I will try.
Love,
Your daughter
