21st
Is it too much to ask for?
Last night was great.
I imagine what a perfect night when I’m older would be like for me. I think I would be too tired for a stroll downtown at night and dancing. Maybe on the weekends. That would be nice. I feel like I just want to come home. Plop down on the couch. Order pizza and chicken wings and watch the game with my boyfriend or fiance or husband. I would be really happy with just that.
I have all these images in my head lately. Images of how I want to look like and what I want in the near future. It’s so embarrassing. I feel like I just want to be grown up so I don’t have to think about the frivolous things I do now. So maybe life would feel more stable. Things would be sorted out. Can’t we skip all the painful in between? I feel like these are the true growing pains. Don’t I have enough character? I don’t need to go through anymore strife to build character. So please, I’ll pass.
I noticed your perception is shaped by your mind set. I could think something is so beautiful while others think it’s horrid or sub par. We all have different mind sets and taste. Feel proud in what you find amazing. I think that makes you unique. Don’t be ashamed.Don’t hide. Don’t pretend to be someone else. So you find Spongebob amazing because it’s so ridiculously cute and silly that it frees your mind from worries. Good for you. Don’t think, who in there right mind would hate Spongebob? Think, I wonder who else likes Spongebob too? Maybe we can watch Spongebob together. :)
I wanna be that kind of girlllllll. So you’ll want to be with me forever. At the moment when you’re with me, you’ll think that. I don’t need it to be true, I’m just flattered by the thought of you thinking that.
We could last forever,
Jennineeds to get out of bed
