27th
Out of my element
Do you want to know some things about me?
Honestly, don’t think I’m a bad person. Everything that has been going on lately has really put me on edge. I don’t really like any of it. The people I let get to me has made me into an angry person. I am not an angry person and I hate that these people are testing my character.
How am I really like? I’m happy most of the time. Stressed when I want to do well. Generally, I know what’s good for me and I know what’s bad for me. I am optimistic and hopeful. I have faith in mankind most of the time. Poverty at it’s lowest pulls at my heart strings and makes me weep inside. Last and foremost, I am not judgmental.
Recent events have reminded my of my past and the anger and hate I let take over. People are right when they say it takes a lot more effort and time to hate someone and carry that hate with them at all times. I am letting go. With the help of Nada Surf’s Always Love, I got through the pain and anger and just let go because “hate will get you every time.”
I don’t want these people to make me go against my principle and character. They’re making me lose the faith I have in the goodness I believe everyone has deep down. I will have faith in time. Time that will strengthen my outlook and their character. Time that will teach them how to understand the dynamics of life. Time that will teach them to be better people and as I am trying to do—just let go and float with the stream.
I don’t want to hate and I don’t want to be angry. I know myself and I know what it has done to me this week. The hate and anger was killing who I really was and I’m stopping it before it gets me.
Simple and clean,
Jennifer Nguyen
brrrr it’s cold out here!
